Saturday, January 9, 2010

Day Nine: I just gotta trust God in all things..

Here is my heart.. open for all to inspect.

We had a miscarriage in September. I know that is a personal thing.. not something most would blog about... but it is on my heart today to share with you. We are trying to conceive. There is nothing like loosing a baby to help you know exactly where you are in your choices to have more kids or not. I new when we lost this baby that I soooo wanted one more child. So for the first time ever, Todd and I have tried to get pregnant.

Never have I had a faith walk like this one. I have been tracking my fertility signs for 4 months now. Everyday is a walk on a narrow path. I have had good days where my faith was sooooo high and then there have been days when I was so low. But you know the more I read and chart and look at other people the more I realize GOD IS TOTALLY IN THIS! I have always trusted him before...

I know that I know that I know that I am going to have another baby. So why do I stumble in faith?

Romans 9:31-33 (New International Version)

31but Israel, who pursued a law of righteousness, has not attained it. 32Why not? Because they pursued it not by faith but as if it were by works. They stumbled over the "stumbling stone." 33As it is written:
"See, I lay in Zion a stone that causes men to stumble
and a rock that makes them fall,
and the one who trusts in him will never be put to shame."[a]

So Lord, let me not be put to shame!!!
GOD I TRUST YOU, as a daughter of the King of Kings.. I trust you today!
You are the God who brings worth to me! I BELIEVE as it has said in
Luke 1:45 (New International Version)

45Blessed is she who has believed that what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished!"

You bring me WORTH Lord... you are my worth!

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry for your loss.

    I understand the TTC rollercoaster all too well - it took use three years to conceive our first daughter. It was a very difficult time, but I think we appreciate the blessing of children so much more for that wait (that may not apply to everyone, but I think it does for us).

    Our second daughter graced us with her conception almost as soon as I finished pumping for Emily. That was a shock!!